Tuesday, October 14, 2008
My beloved Ah ma.
My beloved Ah ma.
Ah ma was a wonderful simple woman. She was a full time housewife, dedicated mother and a loving grandmother. She loves telling stories to hers grandchildren. Ah ma, always make sure i have enough to eat and she feels happy by just looking at hers grandchildren eating. I still remember she will take the chicken thigh and put on my plate. She will make sure all hers grandchildren get a piece of chicken thigh. In hokien family, we only get to eat the chicken thigh when we're the favorite child or grandchildren. Whenever i visits her, she will spend almost the whole day telling me all the old stories. Although i don't really understand hokien, but i somehow rather enjoy listening to hers stories.
She wakes up very early every morning to clean the house and bake bread for breakfast. Almost every morning, the house will smell like a bakery shop. She make sure we all will wake up not later than 8am for breakfast. For her, rules are to be followed and discipline is very important.
Ah ma always said that education is important. One of the reason I'm still studying is because of hers advise. Ah ma and Ah kong always tell us that, without education, we will suffer in future. Nothing is easy in life and everything needs hard work and honesty. We can have a better life with education in our hand.
There is so much to tell about her. But, i rather keep it in my heart forever. I'm glad Ah ma stills remember me when i went and see her last Christmas. She show me hers Angiography film and ask me to evaluate. I knew there was something amiss but i didn't want to say a thing about it. Nothing was wrong with Ah ma's heart. It was Ah ma's memory. She was diagnose with Alzheimer.
Its not easy for us to accept Ah ma's reminiscing and having visions of the past. It makes us all so sad to see her in this condition. It takes allot to convince and talk to her. We have to be very supporting physically and mentally strong to take care of her.
With Ah ma's visions of the past, she fell down 1 day because of trying to escape from the house and was lying sick for 2 months. But, she was doing good and was recovering. On the 5th of October at 10pm, Ah Yee was feeding her chicken essence and half way through feeding, Ah ma past away silently. Ah ma left us all forever without saying goodbye.
Its hard to accept that she is gone forever. It was also sad to see hers very last few months lying sick and having visions of the past. For me Ah ma is still alive deep down in my heart.
I miss you so much Ah ma. Till we meet again, rest in peace my beloved Ah ma.
It's 9:26 PM!
