I've don't knw wats got into my mind, but i've never had done such a crazy thing in my life. Its just that i have to try all sorts of things before i die.

The plan sounds so crazy..but more like an psycho project. The contract sounds fun but at the same time, its like having my self dignity to the lowest level...damn..i seriously do hate it. I guess, it would be not a good idea to carry on..but at the same time it sounds like its so freaking fun to just do it.

Another thingy is..i just have to mark my teritory...yea..you go gal!!!




It's been really a long time since i've last visited and jot down on this blog. I've been wondering if there is still anyone who visits my blog. There is a tagboard that i've placed on my blog..so everyone please feel free to tag a word or two..yea.

Family...i'll be starting todays journal about family. Its something that recides in everyones heart..about love,care,closeness,tender,respect..its a bond between humans and its unexplainable. But, it hurts the most when conflicts happens and when problems arises. Betrayel and lies comes in and fight that leads to misunderstandings with lotsa heartbreaks and grunge. I hate to even think about it but what can i say?? I know who is the culprit..who is the master mind and the champion planner. Congratulations, for you have suceeded your modus operandi. But, always remember that you won't be alwiz in the winning side. For every dog has a day...and soon is your turn.

I seriously look so lost and mumbling wierd things.Well God knows whats all about it..but to be honest, the pain is still so painfull deep in my heart and grunge all over me...i will never forget and forgive...never.

My alter ego..Orchid.Keeps grunge over hers families. Will never trust anyone ever again and stays in hers own world. Oh yea...there is a pest in my life that i feel so sorry for calling him a pest but he is really acting like one these days...why can't these people understands what im going thru and im having a real big exam soon...just stop disturbing me and stop interfearing in my personal life..thanks for distroying almost everything and for now just let me be me. Just leave me alone in my own world. Thanks.




Finally its over..exams are all over. There comes the posting for 3mths...just imagine working for 3 mths with no salary or allowance. Im also wondering when is the exam results coming out. I did try asking Mr.Yoga just now and Pakya answered its not for you to knw when. He answered so arrogantly and didn't even look at my face. Btw, who is asking him anyway. One word for you Pakya, "fuck off". I know he will give me a C on his subject..i knw it well...he is so unprofessional...he do all that because of some personal thing. Watever Pakya...do watever an answer to God later.

Sometimes i just wonder, if life could be just like the korean dramas. I...always dream of a perfect life and who does not? Neh...i still think money is important and is everything..even i've try to denied it in front of my mom so many times..but the fact is..it is important and it does buy everything including love.




Isaac was running to my room today..suddenly he trip and fell and bang his face on my bed..he was very extremely hurt as his teeth cut his lips leaving it a big hole. It was bleeding non-stop and i get the gouse(i smuggle frm the hospital when i was posting) and soak with cold water to stop the bleed. Then we get him to the clinic. Doc gave an ointment and some meds. He also ask to get Bonjela from the pharmacy. Pity him..he didn't even want to drink milk before sleep because he knows the nipple of the milk bottle will touch his wound and its going to hurt.

Dear readers, any ideas on how to make the wound heal faster? The doctor told that, he suppose to get stitches, but it will makes no difference as it will also takes time to heal and plus stitches will make it more difficult for him to eat. And just imagine, of all this things that happen, Cruela, try to say something bad to make Isaac think that his father was a bad guy. What a bitch...and what more can i say? I told her that i have no respect for her as she is teaching a small boy to disrespect his parents in situation like this and i told her for every action there is a coming reaction. Just imagine, how can she say things like that when im in a critical situation with my son.

Welcome to my sick world. I am still waiting for the blessing of God..so that i can get out of this hell and built my own heaven.

Please email me yea. Or just sms me for some remedies and ideas.




I was reading my old blog yesterday and find out that it was so much more interesting than this current blog. I don't know if its because of, its nice reading about the good old days or if its because i was more fun and interesting those days compare to now. Hmm...nehhh.....i think its because of some nice stories and some hidden skeletons stories...hihi...also some Keith stories. I was chatting with him yesterday in fact, and he told me that the most happy moment working in TIT was the moment working together and being with me. Huahuahuahua......ermm....i was single at that time and have not yet meet my husband. Just wondering, what actually went wrong with both of us huh?? Well,...no need to explain here...secret!!! Change the topic...

I'm so addicted to "The Nanny" sitcom which aired at Hallmark (702) on every Mon-sat at midnight till 1am. On Saturdays, the sitcom starts at 11pm till 1am. Well, it has been my favourite sitcom since secondary school days and getting to watch it again is as much fun and exited like those days. I never miss a night watching Nanny..if i miss it, i can't sleep well for the whole night. Yea..i know..I'm obsessed with this sitcom.

As usual, classes today is at PBD. The lecture was fun..Mr. Ravi is a real joker. I enjoy being in his class. After class i gave Prasad a lift back home. Pity him lah, it was raining and he was rushing to go to work. Afterall, he never before ask me for help. Oh..btw, Prasad looks just like Shahrukh Khan. Don't jealous huh..i was in the same car with Shahrukh just now...ekekekek. As usual, we are always planing to go and play golf..but always tak jadi. We talk abt golf again just now and we're going to go no matter what before the finals. This time is for sure.

Activities for next week is jamming session. Btw, just msg Melvin and Wan...and will be jamming next week at Akarkarya...yuhooooo....now the pening part is..to pick the songs that i want to sing...because this guys are all into Indie stuffs. And i hate Indies.......blueeekk. Since our drummer already angkat kaki...i'll be taking my husband as the drummer. Just for fun. Why not Nisa?? Coz...i don't know..i think the boys don't like her. Well, its just for fun...so who cares who is the drummer and who cares if the singer can sing :P




Ah ma was a wonderful simple woman. She was a full time housewife, dedicated mother and a loving grandmother. She loves telling stories to hers grandchildren. Ah ma, always make sure i have enough to eat and she feels happy by just looking at hers grandchildren eating. I still remember she will take the chicken thigh and put on my plate. She will make sure all hers grandchildren get a piece of chicken thigh. In hokien family, we only get to eat the chicken thigh when we're the favorite child or grandchildren. Whenever i visits her, she will spend almost the whole day telling me all the old stories. Although i don't really understand hokien, but i somehow rather enjoy listening to hers stories.

She wakes up very early every morning to clean the house and bake bread for breakfast. Almost every morning, the house will smell like a bakery shop. She make sure we all will wake up not later than 8am for breakfast. For her, rules are to be followed and discipline is very important.

Ah ma always said that education is important. One of the reason I'm still studying is because of hers advise. Ah ma and Ah kong always tell us that, without education, we will suffer in future. Nothing is easy in life and everything needs hard work and honesty. We can have a better life with education in our hand.

There is so much to tell about her. But, i rather keep it in my heart forever. I'm glad Ah ma stills remember me when i went and see her last Christmas. She show me hers Angiography film and ask me to evaluate. I knew there was something amiss but i didn't want to say a thing about it. Nothing was wrong with Ah ma's heart. It was Ah ma's memory. She was diagnose with Alzheimer.

Its not easy for us to accept Ah ma's reminiscing and having visions of the past. It makes us all so sad to see her in this condition. It takes allot to convince and talk to her. We have to be very supporting physically and mentally strong to take care of her.

With Ah ma's visions of the past, she fell down 1 day because of trying to escape from the house and was lying sick for 2 months. But, she was doing good and was recovering. On the 5th of October at 10pm, Ah Yee was feeding her chicken essence and half way through feeding, Ah ma past away silently. Ah ma left us all forever without saying goodbye.

Its hard to accept that she is gone forever. It was also sad to see hers very last few months lying sick and having visions of the past. For me Ah ma is still alive deep down in my heart.

I miss you so much Ah ma. Till we meet again, rest in peace my beloved Ah ma.





I'm now watching KBS channel and its a cook show on crabs and Korean seafood...i tell you..its really killing me. The crabs are so big,juicy and delicious, not to mention the octopus and shrimps all cook with chili paste. Rombe nalla ireke...

It has been a busy Raya for me. I spent my Rayas working. Well, it has been super duper boring coz the customers are 99.9% Chinese. I'm not being racist but Chinese are the most difficult humans to serve. Ermm,not forgetting Japanese too. They are so annoying. They simply don't understand what you tell them and like to be a smartass. Like for example, (Part 1) they love to shop using their credit card. Even if the total of the bill comes up to less than RM10, they will still use credit card. (Part 2) When their credit card is "Declined" or "Do Not Honour", they tend to be harsh at us and pretend to be bodoh kangkung just to cover their malu. They will say, we purposely declined their card or barred their card. Its Ikea for God's sake, its not a bank and we're not the bank officer, how in the world could i ever barred or declined their cards?
(Part 3) They also LOVE to buy display items that don't have a bar scanner and most of the times, the items is spoilt. And when i ask them if they still want to get it, they will say yes. I'm totally confused..did they actually understand what am i asking & explaining to them or they are just the kind of people who likes to buy wreck items??
(Part 4) Most of them don't know how to use the divider bar and just chuck their things and ended up mixed with the other customer. When i ask them, is this yours too? They will answer YES. And the thing is, i will ask them more than once just to really confirm. And when i scanned, they will say, "oh, this is not mine!", or even worse, they will yelled at me trying to make me look like a stupid who don't understand a simple instruction. And when this happen, i really feel like slapping their face so hard until their eye balls pop out!!
And there is more...part 5&6&7 and never ending....sighh....and Annie is asking my help again on this Sunday.
The ones which are really rich..like those who are using Amex, they are the most humble and nice people. Weird huh??

I was driving back home this afternoon and the weather was so fine. I snap this picture. The scenery was so lovely. But, i was only able to snap 1 pic, coz i was driving and i wouldn't want to end up banging to someones bumper.



This the MRR2 highway heading to Batu Caves..and heading to my house. My house is along Duke Highway.










My favourite snacks... and also this... old scooter





I wonder when ever am i going to taste the Ja Jjang noodle in Midvalley. I was looking foward to have Ja Jjang for lunch but now i ended up having popcorn for lunch. Great..and if grandma will going to follow my lunch menu now, she'll be able to loose weight in just a month! Haha....

Kimche has been my favourite food since few years back. Its not so a Malaysian kinda food, but most of us have tasted kimchee. I'm all over it and i make kimchee every now and then and store it in the refrigerator. It taste well with rice and we can actually cook it with Maggi mee..replacing the MSG perencah to kimchee instead. U'll surely have a healthy life...and once again, if grandma follow this steps...she will be a super slim mucha mucha granny. No suffering..and no pain.

I've been overloaded with assignments and presentations and I'm so super duper lazy to do it. But, seriously if i don't to it by today, i'll be having no time. I really don't feel like helping Annie out. I feel so wasted..coz i can just simply do my revision and other stuffs. But, if i help Annie out...then i don't have to do any visiting which i'm not so keen to visit anyone on Raya. Plus, there will be lotsa nice movies on Astro and also on the local tv station. Once again, if grandma follow this simple steps...she'll slim down soon...very soon. This is because, if u don't go for visiting, you won't be eating too much, and when you don't eat too much...u'll be much more healthier and u'll loose weight. Hihi...


I spent a day at godma's yesterday. I really love hers house..very comfortable. Plus, not to mention now, the new leather sofa is so comfy..i really feel like sitting down on some rich man house...haha...serious no joke. We had tea and some ginger biscuits...that also is another blast. The tea was so good. And it actually goes well with the ginger biscuits. I'll be doing an opening ceremony tonight....open ceremony of Baileys...hehe...erm, grandma, this is excluded in your daily menu...please don't do any opening ceremony ok. Lov you!!!




So, we're suppose to go out today, we're suppose to have some good food, movies together or maybe golfing or maybe even shopping, but somehow rather somethings turn up. Yea, there he is in the office again...i somehow understand that he is a very busy man. Having his own company to manage is not something easy. Maybe tomorrow we will go out or maybe next week. And that if he is not going to Korea again. Anyway, I'm not so that missing him at the moment.

I'm not that free as well. Final is coming and I'm still 50-50 on my physics. I spend the whole day yesterday trying to practice on it. I gotta make it perfect. I'm not a perfecto kind of person, but i do have to see somethings perfect in most of the things that i do. I wish i can just stop being so competitive in everything. I wish i can just learn to be more appreciative in what i have and achieved. But.....i just can't. I just can't and i don't know why.

I think I'm going take a day break today. I guess i should, studying everyday isn't going to make me a genius. I'm kinda lonely. Like people say, "best friend are like sisters". And now she is out of town, I'm so bored without her. Well, i still can call Chris, or Santha or Sal or whoever...but its just won't be the same like her.

Its going to be Raya next week and i can't wait to go back to work. Annie called and ask me to help her out. Surdev has been such a pain and i sincerely felt pity for Annie. Its just 2 days and its gonna be triple, so i guess there is no reason i should let it go. I've always say this to myself that in the age of 40, I'll be in Joseph Lau's place. I'll be sitting on his chair and I'll be running the show. Well, I'll try, even thou it sound so ridiculous. Haha...




I wanted to go to MV today after my classes, but i was so lazy to drive there. The food court there serves good Korean food and the kimche is nice. I'm craving of the Jjang noodle and will find a day somewhere in this week to release off my cravings.

I'm also thinking of making my own kimche and buko fruit salad. Kimche takes time to make and i have to wait for a day or two to be able to eat it, since it has to be preserved. Buko fruit salad is more easy to do..but the bad side of it is, its very very fattening.

I went to college early today..in fact an hour earlier. My friends was like...whoaaaa...so early huh? Knowing me, i've never come to class early. Yea, blamed it on the jam. Well, i guess is the deciding on what to wear and what accessories to match with is the most time consuming for me every morning. But today i was early, coz i wanted to get Ms. Siti to teach me physics. Haha...what a day to start with....PHYSICS.

Opportunity visits those who makes great efforts, so tmw im going to seek my opportunity. I trust in God for whatever results. I'm really looking forward for this great moment to come true.




I've finally decide to change my layout. It was lotsa hard work as there was lotsa coding to do. I've added the cbox in the "Tag" corner. So, i hope that readers can leave a message or comment in my cbox.

I went to this 5 star hospital today to apply for my clinical attachment and also submited my resume. There is like a 90% chances of my gettin a job there. So, all i have to do is to get my h.o.d to approve my posting there and the rest is all based on my 90% luck. Huhu...

*Wink**...Korean food for dinner tonight!









I seriously feel so lazy to change my blog layout and decided to just let it be the way it is now...Merry Christmas!!

Its been a very long time, and today, im starting blogging again. Partly is because of my godmother that finally start blogging and i just can't help to blog too after reading to her's blog n Tini's blog. I really don't know what i was blogging about in my previous blogs..and i hope i didn't write anything stupid.

Well, its been a wierd week for me. I've received sad news about my cousin and its very disturbing actually. Being in love is something like a learning process. We take it 1 step at a time. I just feel that lil' couzie has been taking the advance step without even predicting the future,hmm..really diplazo. If u're wondering what Diplazo means, well its a jargon that i created myself.

Since its the final year of my studies, i have been flooded with multimillions of asignments and presentations to do. One of the presentation is about Catholism. Its very interesting and i've learn more about catholic. Its a waste that we humans sometimes put God aside knowing that God will never neglet and ignore us.




*Curently listening to Korean singer/Actor-Rain (But i love you) .....yea i love you too Rain..ahakss....




Once again the nation is shocked with a new story about religion and death. Its a saddening thing that this particularly country so called freedom and democratic country...turns out to be a disgracing unfair country.

I really felt sorry for the family of (u know who). I don't understand...afterall...that person is already dead and what the hell is there to still fight over a dead body?I guess, an educated person will be able to think wisely if this situation does sounds logic or not. Effort should be taken when a person is still alive...not when they are already dead.

I am not condemming any religion here. This religion is a very beautiful religion.I used to read so many books about this religion and seriously its a very fair and beautiful religion. But,its sad that, some unhuman humans who only have some authority, turns this religion to be an unfair and hatred in peoples eyes.

Sorry, no offends...but i guess this is my blog, i have the rights to write anything i want to and i hope that good and fair action should be taken, to make this world..a peacefull and better place. Don't tarnish the faces and prides of all the worshipers of this religion...coz..seriously its a beautiful religion.